I have been reading the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis. Powerful stuff. I was listening in the car on the way home from work yesterday (it is an audio book). I am reflecting over my life while I listen to this book. It really makes you think deep stuff about the opposing side and the demons that are working against you and against God.
Something he said yesterday gave me a vision in my mind -- my Lord Jesus with his hands tied behind his back. And I am the one that tied them. How many times have I suppressed God or the Spirit from working in my life to a greater extent than I have allowed? But I have been doing it all along. "Yes, Lord, could you please help me with this, but I only want you to do it this way and I only want this much." I am so guilty.
How do I remove the bindings? I am scared of the full force of God's power. What if he works in me and around me in ways that I don't understand?
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Isn't strange how we all begin to realize how we aren't good enough and haven't been trusting enough - just when we begin to see just how good, trusting and loving our Lord Jesus Christ is to us. We can't compare ourselves to Him that is why He gave us Grace and Mercy - to balance the difference.
I can give Him my all and surrender to Him and know that is enough. He loved me when I wasn't even trying and now that I know Him better - I know he still loves me and I love Him more.